It is an odd thing that happens. I think they call this writers block! I have been preparing my presentation of my story for weeks now…I’ve been telling it for years…and yet, I’ve been getting stuck over and over and over. I am at the part in my presentation where I will be talking about gratitude. I have so many things I am grateful for, I don’t think I know where to begin. So, I decided that instead of writing it in the presentation, I would try a different route and write this in hopes of it guiding me where I need it to.
I am so grateful for the healing journey I have been on. It would never in a million years be something that I would have chosen for myself, (no one would want to lose a child, or anyone close to them,) however, it is because of this that I am where I am today. It is in a pretty awesome place. I know who I am. I know why I’m here. I am grateful for all the choices-good, bad, ugly, and beautiful-I have made to get here. I am grateful for the pain. I am grateful for the uncertainty. I am grateful for all the many people I have come in contact with over the years that have helped me, encouraged me and inspired me to get to the next level.
It’s not by chance that the people I have met and let into my life. They each come at the precise time that I need them to. Some of them I get to help, some of them get to help me. In all actuality, we always end up helping each other. And then life changes. As it does. I will move, get a new job, go to a new place and meet a new friend. I was told that I am the kind of person that will go have lunch with someone and be their best friend for the rest of my life. It’s totally true. That doesn’t mean that I will spend every spare moment with that person, (for those of you who know me, I don’t have much spare time!) It means that we are now connected for life. I will think of them. I will be here for them. They will do the same for me. And that I am so grateful for!
They help motivate me to keep walking forward. They allow me to feel and try new things, and they help pick me back up when I fall, brush off the dirt and keep walking! That’s the message of gratitude I want to get across. That’s the message I want to use to help inspire others. I am real. I am raw. And I am unafraid!